真不想再恨自己了，说说这糟糕的心情吧！

这种感觉，像是在一个没有出口的迷宫里，四壁都是自己内心的责备和悔恨。每一次呼吸都带着沉重的疲惫，每一次心跳都像是在敲打自己的良知。我们试图用各种理由来辩解，试图找到一丝 оправдания for our mistakes, but deep down, we know it's all just self-deception. We keep replaying the past in our minds, each time more painfully than the last, as if we could change what has already happened. But the truth is, we can't. All we can do is keep torturing ourselves with these memories and feelings of guilt. It's a vicious cycle that seems to have no end, and we are trapped in the middle of it, unable to find a way out. This kind of mood is truly terrible, it makes us feel lost and helpless, as if we are drowning in a deep sea, unable to breathe.